The bottom whine, errr, line.

by


(My ass’ new BFF)

Ahh People.

I laugh.

Id completely and totally gifted myself this blogpost to whine, b*tch, kvetch & moan.

I was pumped.

I was excited!

I was ready to unload & be all!about!me!!

Until I sat down and plopped fingers to keyboard.

What did my dearth of words cause me to (re)learn about myself? (thanks for asking)

Im not a very good whiner.

For each lament I almost  typed I innately, instinctively, found the silver lining.

What started out as a planned complaint session with comments closed (you know, lest anyone tried to cheer or perk me up & all) transformed into the bullets below.

Mainly minus the whine and more an update of sorts.

(my apologies to all of you who’ve listened to my whines lately. please to know you’re probably the reason I was able to silver-lining focus up in herre. and, again, THANK YOU. please to out yourselves?)

  • I am 100% officially out of the race in Vegas. It’s funny.  I was shocked how many of *you* were shocked when I shared this fact on Twitter.  I’d really thought I’d whined up a STORM in these posts.   What started as back ‘tightness’ seems to have *really* originated in my glute-area (hence the photo above).  Ten weeks no running later plus the fact I cant walk a mile let alone 13.1 equals no race for me.
  • I’m 99.9% certain Im not traveling to Vegas (I like to leave things open for a miracle. you never know!) Im already out race-fees & am not able to incur flight, hotel, food & childcare for an event Im not doing.  In addition, Im sad.  I wish I could be out there running.  As much as Id like to say Im woman enough to spend money I dont have to come and cheer everyone on—Im not.  Im woman enough to realize that some of my sadness stems from lack of sleep (for a while the pain was keeping the slumber as well as the exercise at bay) which leads me to…
  • Im indeed Silverlining McGee. Making it to age 40 without ever being injured & having this all suddenly tossed my way** has caused me to realize a few things.  First, Im not addicted to exercise.  Id always surmised this.  Id definitely professed this.  Ive learned it is true.  Next, I am resourceful.  When I lose one form of stress-reduction instead of wallowing I find another (Hello meditation!). Lastly, this derailment might just be what I needed to discover my love of the run.  Now that I absolutely can not run—Ive found I long to. That would be a fab silver lining in this misfit’s mind.
  • I am all about the family.   As with the shocking(not) realization Im not an exercise addict this one is more a happy finding out I am what I thought I was (does that even make sense? it does to me).  Giving up running/the race in Vegas has been nothing compared to sitting and watching my daughter play instead of participating.  Missing out on the half-marathon is nothing compared to telling her ‘mommy is going to sit on the bench and watch you play‘ or (even worse to me) telling her NO! to the playground & opting for a more sedentary playplace.  The word heartbreaking comes immediately to mind.

So that’s where I leave you on this Friday.

AssRolling.

ArseSITTING.

Exercise-longing.

Vegas-missing.

And.

Scene.


**my injury (if we wanna call it that) was NOT caused by exercise at all. welcome to age 41 I guess…

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Comments

  2. OMG, I can completely empathize with this. About 3 years ago, I’d completed my first triathlon and was ready to do my second when I couldn’t shake a niggling back problem that gradually because worse until I was in agony. I gave myself time to recover but had to accept I was not well enough to compete in the second tri.

    Long story short, I rested, recovered, trained, reinjured, rested, recovered, trained, reinjured until January this year when a disc herniated (slipped) and I was bed bound for 6 weeks. It’s been a slow, painful recovery and I’m not there yet.

    When your back goes, for whatever reason, and from wherever it originates, it’s completely demoralizing.

    Your silver lining mentality will be your saviour (and ours!), because you’re right; my slipped disc has made me slow down (I’m restricted to walking only) and get back to basics. I’ve begun pilates to stabilize my pelvis and strengthen my core (not my 6-pack, my CORE. Totally different thing). I’m transformed in a way I would not have been without my injury.

    Thanks for the reminder of that 🙂

  3. You really are a classy woman lovely Carla, I doubt I would have been so dignified. Hoping you are on your way to be pain-free again soon xxox

  4. I’m sad that you aren’t going and that you are dealing with an injury, but you are a great example to the rest of us. Seriously, I’m so impressed by the way you are handling it and listening to your body and doing what’s right for you.

    Maybe next year?

  5. So sorry about your injury, but kudos to you for being open to the blessings that were there for the taking. So many times, we focus on what we’ve lost and miss out on some really cool stuff that’s sitting right in front of us.

  7. I agree with Shauna, very classy lady. And not only are you seeing the silver lining in all of this, but you have opened my eyes to silver linings as well. So thank you.

    I have done my share of whining this year. I will be a year tomorrow since my surgery on my foot. I’ve struggled sice

    It took me 40-some years to learn how good it felt to be fit and to care about my body and health. But for the past year, I’ve been frustrated, surgery, recovery, rest, injury, rest, injury, rest. It’s so frustrating when the body won’t do what the mind wants to do. But with that, I have been able to focus on other things, and I’m learning to listen to my body, instead of go, go, go, and have pain, pain, pain.

    You are SUCH AN INSPIRATION, CARLA and your post today was perfect timing for me. Thank you.

  8. Another silver lining: you turned to meditation and not to food.

    Maybe you never would have turned to food, but there are a lot of us who would have. So that’s actually pure gold to me.

  9. Part of this journey for all of us is listening to our bodies…

    We all could use a little more practice in that dept.

  10. It would be worth it to me to be injured if I could learn such powerful lessons about myself.

    I am destructive when faced with adversity. Food. Drink. Spending.

    I need to learn to turn inward and, as you said in a podcast, turn TOWARD my loved ones in times of stress and not away.

    You inspire me even in your injury.

    Thank you.

  11. I would be inclined to whine as well. But wonderful silver-lining reflections. I’m sad with you that you can’t run in Vegas, but totally agree that it is definitely more sad when you tell your child that you can’t play. (LB is totally in a “play with me!” stage)

    And this also makes me thankful that in this year of making exercise a habit, I have remained injury-free. Very thankful.

  13. You are a great non-kvetcher. I could learn a thing or two from you, Miz Positive Silverling Fit. It’s cool to hear such positive reframes.

  14. I mean this not in a disrespectful way but if I could learn those lessons I might put up with being injured.

    I fear I put my workouts before family not in a good healthy way.

    Lizzie

  15. You know I totally hear you on this on so many different levels. After battling through injury a big chunk of the last year too, I have found myself longing for any kind of exercise!

    And I totally hear you on the family thing too, nothing I hate more post-op than not being able to wrestle with my kids!

    My sis-in-law lives in Houston, maybe our family trip in Spring needs to be a tour of Texas (a stop in the ATX would for sure be included…)

  16. The tune-up balls (glorified tennis ball) was my BFF during my last back injury. And gentle yoga stretches, if you can stand it, really helped, too. So sorry about the pain you’ve been going through, Miz 🙁 Praying you get some relief soon!

  18. You are an amazing woman! Hope you get back to 100% soon, I know my injury was painful and seem to take forever to heal(of course I got 10 years on you)

  19. You are an amazing woman, Hope you get back to 100 % soon. I know my injury seemed like it took forever to heal but then…. I have 10 years on you!

  20. You are an amazing, inspiring woman, Carla! I am truly inspired by your approach to dealing with your injury, and I hope to take your example and “run” with it as I deal with my own run-stopping injury. I was whining about not working out, but was truly sad when I couldn’t pick up my niece. Everything always seems to give you perspective in the long term! It makes you realize that running is just a small part of a huge, amazing life picture. Take care of YOU, enjoy your quiet family time!

  21. I think you know my thoughts about running…if god had meant for us to run, we would have been born with two legs and two feet. Wait a sec, that didn’t come out right.

  22. You acted in this situation just the way I’ve come to expect you to act. The very best decision in a difficult situation. And seeing the silver lining. That’s why you’re the Queen of Blogdom!

  24. Only you could find the glad in the sad.
    That’s why you are the Mayor (who said that?)

    I need ass rolling details I think.

    I am struggling with sciatica (sp).

  25. Aw, I’m so sorry I didn’t realize that you were injured. Hoping your feeling better soon! When I was having my worst ever neck pain, not to make this about me, I was having trouble sleeping too. Being in pain AND exhausted, is so very hard! Of course you’re feeling sad.

    I’m happy that you discovered your love for the run. That’s something you might not have realized, good for you on finding the silver lining!

    Big hugs Carla!

  27. What does it say about me when I see the photo and read its capton, “My ass’ new BFF”, and then I think huh, here is a post on how to use a tennis ball to exercise your butt.

    Obviously I need to knock my brain into gear this morning, or I did, as it is now that the whole post is read. I’ve learned many things from you in a short time. Perhaps one of the more insightful bits has been your thoughts on rest & recovery. The words ‘active rest’ just popped into mind, no doubt something I’ve heard you say.

    Rest, recover and keep smiling; Vegas and 13.1’s will be there to be had another day 🙂

  28. Hi – Well, I think that your post was lovely and thought provoking for those injured and not. Hoping and praying you’re well enough to PLAY soon. 🙂

  29. I adore you Mizfit! As someone who’s had lots of sports injuries, I found that I could still work out even when injured…sit ups , push ups, pull ups, swimming, some isometrics that don’t use the injured part. It’s actually possible to lose weight when injured because I would be even more careful about what I ate! I am sorry to hear about LV though.

  30. I love you silver lining McGee!! And I also love tennis balls for working out sore glutes. Gym Buddy Megan keeps one in her gym bag… that she refuses to share with me. I know! After all we’ve been through together!

  32. Carla, your injury sounds very similar to one my husband incurred this summer. He seems (with much physical therapy) to finally be turning a corner with it. So frustrating though. It was so hard for him to HAVE to slow down, though yes there have been benefits from it as well. Our boys so enjoyed having more time with their dad as he had to sit or lay down often, instead of being outside gardening or building something.

    And yes, looking at the brighter side is so a part of you. Sometimes we are meant to slow down I think.

    ~Lisa

  34. Carla…I am so glad you posted this. The openness makes me love you even more. The mommy in me understands what you miss the most and it has nothing to do with running or showing up for a marathon.

  35. Tennis balls and foam rollers saved my ass. Literally 🙂

    I feel for you. My reoccurring knee thing has frustrated me, but I’ve found ways to work around it and be fit. I decided to take is as a hint from life to step back, breath and focus on the little things and the important things. For someone who lives a fit life the fitness will not fade away. You’ll just find other things that work for you. And you will get better with time.
    It makes me smile deep inside to know you’re cherishing the extra time with your daughter. 🙂

  36. I am sorry you’re missing the race, but SO happy that you have had and will keep having the wonderful active life you deserve with your child! Because lemme tell you, being almost 300 pounds and ALWAYS being too tired to play on theplayground or even go to the park with your child IS truly heartbreaking! And so many people live with that every single day. Keep being a shining light for fitness Miz!

  37. I shower thee with hugs!

    That’s really crappy that you have an injury and that you’re missing out on something you were looking forward to – but (silver lining!) you’re honouring your body and setting a good example for your daughter and all of us in the blogosphere.

    I heart you.

  38. Sorry to hear you’re hurting and not being able to play with your daughter the way you’d like! I would be whining a bit too if I had to throw my plans and wishes out the window. Thank you for reminding me that it’s ok to slow down and heal instead of pushing too hard.

  40. We are like twins with the silver lining. Any time I pound out a bitching post, I feel so much better that I erase it because it isn’t valid anymore!

    When I herniated my disk earlier this year, I also learned a lot about exercise. I found out that I would not regain 100 pounds overnight (duh) and I had time to do other hobbies. Yay!

    Don’t feel bad about not going out to Vegas. Being supportive is one thing, but putting yourself into a financial hole to be so is not supporting *you* and your family. That always comes first. There are other races and other events to do. Plus, you can cheer virtually!

  41. Oh, dear. I’ve been lurking, but missed the injury posts! I’m sorry you’re hurt, but glad you see the silver lining.

    Not sure what exactly is wrong, but if you want supplement recommendations (from my doc, when I ruptured a disc, and which helped my body recover faster) or gentle but effective stretching exercises, or any of that kind of thing – you have my email.

    Love you and hope you feel better!

  42. I love and appreciate the pun. 🙂

    Boooo to the back hurty and missing out on the fun.
    Yaaaaay to the great attitude. I hope you can resolve the back issues soon. Glad to hear you’re resting and taking care of yourself.

  44. (So selfishly) bummed to not be meeting you in LV? Darn tootin’.

    What would I do to that PAIN if I could? Give it the bootin’.

    Hope you are PLAYING again soon? For you I’m rootin’.

    In AWE of your positive attitude in spite of it all? Sure as shootin’.

    (Hope this cheers you up a bit, Mizzy!)

  47. Sisters in arse rolling 🙁 Fortunately I can still exercise but at the brunt of the deep butt issue taking multiple weeks off everything was intensely hard.

    But as you said the hardest part was not the, I can’t run, it was the I can’t play tag with my darling baby girl.

    My sore butt muscle wishes your deep butt muscle a speedy recovery.

  48. Carla, I saw the tennis ball & knew!!! Cracked me up as I was going to email you today & ask about it…..

    I love your learning – I so love it!!!! Life is so friggin short Carla, it scares me! I see it in myself turning 53 in a little more than a week & my sis that just turned 57 & my bro who turns 60 this Monday…. so short & where did it go????

    Yes, live life & I have to learn this.. I have to!!!! I am so trying!

  49. Sorry about the injury… rest and recover! If you think hitting 41 is bad… everything really wants to fall apart after 50, LOL!

    I’m learning that the best exercise for me is easy exercise. At least right now. Sounds like you got the learning way ahead of me. That’s not a bad thing.

  50. booo! sad! brandon and i will miss you in vegas … we were so looking forward to meeting you. 🙁 still, glad you’re making the best out of this situation. 🙂

  51. You prolly know this already, but just in case … see if there is a practitioner in your area who does ART (active release techniques). I had a tight hamstring (OK, I couldn’t bend at the hip) and I was fixed up and out in four appointments — two weeks. Incredible.

  53. I’m so sorry about your injury. Good for you for being able to find the silver lining. Hope you feel better soon!

  55. When you’re ready, and if you want to, another race will be on the horizon. It’s better to get better than to become more injured. Take care.

  56. So sorry to hear that the pain is still bugging you that much. Being injured is never fun at all. You’re definitely making the right choice about Vegas, as sad as I am about not getting to meet you there. But we’ll all definitely be thinking of you and wishing you a speedy recovery! 🙂

  57. Awww, I’m sorry you are having this pain. But I must admit, I smiled when you said you found that you instinctively found the silver lining.

    Because I do that too. I think it comes from years and years of “practice”, choosing to do it, even when we don’t feel like it.

    Then one day, we find our thinking has been transformed at the core. It’s not forced, or phony, but just a great habitual way of thinking. And a good one, methinks.

    Loretta
    =^..^=

  58. I admire so much when someone can find the silver lining in an unpleasant situation. I’d say having more time with that little cutie of yours is a good trade for the race. Some day when she’s a teenager you will have fond memories of the hours you spend playing Candy Land with her or simply watching her on the playground.

    Wishing you a speedy recovery.

  59. Completely understandable! I’m 49 and, luckily, so far anyway, injury free (knocking on wood, otherwise known as my head!)! Sure, I’ve been sidelined for a few days with muscle pulls and minor stuff, but no major injuries as yet. Age, unfortunately, does catch up with us no matter how hard we try to fight it! Hence, all this exercise we do! We try to stay flexible, strong, healthy, but some things just happen.

    Hope you are up and about again soon! Sending healing energy to you!

  60. I know how you feel. I just (today) came to the realization that I won’t be running the SA 1/2 marathon next Sunday due to so many things, but mostly an injury that has re-cropped. I am oddly at peace, although sorely (emotional and physically) bummed.

    Distance makes the heart grow fonder, perhaps? That quote is true on so many levels for me.

    Let’s get together for a pity party soon. 🙂 xoxoxo

  62. I tried and tried to comment on this yesterday and my computer did not want to let me!

    You do what you need. As disappointing as it is, it’s a clue from your body. I tore my gastrocnemius and was in a wheelchair/on crutches/in a walking boot for 16 weeks. It set me back more than 6 months in my training for my black belt.

    You are a strong and powerful woman that I am privileged to know. And I know you will come out of this stronger than ever.

    xoxoxo

  63. I’m sad to say I am in the same boat. 🙁 I was sooo excited about the Vegas Half. It was going to be my first. Then I injured my IT Band…no running for 6 weeks. Now I am jogging 1.5 a few times a week but there’s just no way it’s in the cards for this year. NEXT YEAR!!!!

  64. I’m not surprised by this, as I did pick up on the subtle undertone of whining. 😉 You’re hurting, and you’re smart and experienced enough to know when to back out of something your body can’t do right now. The majority of runners? Would try to run it anyway and make the injury so much worse in the process.

    You have inspired so many people to run that half marathon. That right there? Is plenty of cheering on. You’ve also inspired many of us who couldn’t afford to fly out there and run it with you. The absolute best place for you to do the rest of your cheering is on a bench at the park with your little girl. In time you’ll be off that bench and playing again. For now, being on it is the closest and best place for your encouragement to be.

  65. What a drag. I was pretty sure this announcement was coming, and am so disappointed for you. But I admire how you are handling this. Who knows – maybe your CT of the A will heal in time for the Austin Half? I’ll be there and would love to run it with you!

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