First, thank you so much for playing along at home.
Whether you chimed in on instagram or hit the streets of your ‘hood the fact this became a group-thing made it all the more fun.
And, as with many ventures where I start out thinking this is so not about me! Im doing unto others!!, I learned a great deal about myself along the way.
It wasnt all pretty.
Allow me to elaborate.
I learned people really do want to smile. I tried not to linger awkwardly after I taped up signs—but I frequently did anyway. I spied people slink over grumpily to check out what Id left & watched the slightest of glimmer of grins spread across their collective faces as they read. That, coupled with my raging HELPERS HIGH, made this misfit smile, too.
I learned many of us need more patience. From me (seriously people. take what you need and GO. I wanna see what you ripped off! I cant hide here watching all morning! Do it!!) to OAKtown at large. I came. I taped. I RETURNED to the scene of the
crime taping and *patience* was typically the first word GONE!
I learned I underestimate the brain of a seven year old. Id erroneously thought she’d happily join in with the pre-school neighborhood taping but wouldnt grasp the nuance of the poster. She loves pink. She loves tape. She loves playing before school. I figured we’d tape-together on that fun, superficial level. I was wrong. Which brings me to my final learning moment…
I learned I grew too caught up in the doing unto others & forgot the home-front. (A lesson Im doomed to repeat till I get right) I saved a sign for us to put up after school. I was excited for the Tornado to choose the location & to go out for snack after. I was tired. She was tired. Id gotten up at 4a to work & she was wiped from school
. Longstoryshort we parked & I realized Id forgotten my wallet. She, in her inimitable seven year old way, pressed a few of my buttons and I snapped.
The car grew silent, she ripped the last sign out of my hand, waved it in my face & shouted through her tears:
I need love!!
Her shout was like a slap in the face.
A great slap. A reminder slap.
The rest of what transpired is personal & offline stuffs.
We decided to save our final sign.
It’s now hung in our kitchen so she can always take what she needs/show me what shes “missing.”
Ahhh Take What You Need Day.
I loved you. I learned from you. And not in the way Id imagined.
- Did you play along at home?
- Do you find you are destined to learn & relearn the same lessons till you get it “right?”
- Is your most needed thing these days PATIENCE, too?
Apparently some of us were concerned Id leave the ripped sheets to languish and potentially fall into the Bay. No worries. I paper-retrieved.