I am brazen.
This isn’t something I’ve always realized, though.
So much of my life, I’ve struggled with what seemed to me to be my reckless desire to live outside of society’s expectations for a woman.
Since I was 20 years old, I’ve walked in and out of entrepreneurship, a brazen act in and of itself, but even as I did it, I always carried an apology with me.
“I’m sorry,” I would tell my husband, my family members, my friends. “I wish I could work a typical 9-5, earn a freaking paycheck, and just be normal.”
I believed that my desire to chase my “crazy schemes” was a character flaw and that, at best, I was impractical.
Worse, I was embarrassed by my ambition. It takes audacity — or brazenness, if you will — to believe that YOU can make something absolutely amazing out of, well, nothing.
And, then, there was the fear. What if I failed? This was the thing that kept me from ever fully committing and just going all in on my big ideas.
I am infertile, and a couple of years ago, my husband and I miraculously conceived and then lost the pregnancy.
It was devastating, but it was also illuminating. Experiencing something so crushing in a way that a mere professional failure could nver be brought my life into clearer focus.
I realized then that I’d been holding back all my life.
As women, we live in a world where too often men are slapped on the back for conquest and accomplishment and women are defamed for the same. For years, I have been so afraid of unacceptance that I resisted the urge in my heart to brazenly shine my light, but what I’ve learned is that the world needs that light.
To me, being brazen means being who you are, putting yourself out to the wide world without apology or preamble. It is a gift to everyone around you to be enthusiastically, fearlessly, and audaciously yourself. When we do that, it changes our lives, yes, but more even than that, our authenticity and brazenness has the power to change the world.
Jasmine Myers blogs at Blissfully Bama & is proud owner of the inspirational boutique jewelry line bama + ry. For more on Jasmine,like on Facebook,follow on Twitter, or get on the“Bliss of the Week” list for jewelry discounts.