(please to STOP, sit down, & commence gazing at your own navel as I proceed to blog whilst gazing into mine)
It’s been a wee while since Ive blogged stream of consciousness.
Whether it appears so or not (and believe me given my writing style Im cognizant of the fact it does not)—I tend to blog, put away, retrieve later, edit the crap out of said blog & post.
These muzings have been rattling around in my brain for so long I simply need somewhere to dump them and you, as a captive audience for as long as you dont clickaway! clickaway!, are the unlucky reciepients.
Lately my daughter has been going through the normal IM FIVE!! progression of separating & retreating back to me to be sure Im still here.
When we head out to terrorize our local bookstore she immediately wanders off with her ‘friends’ with me watching like the proverbial hawk & is slowly readying herself for the breaking-away which is kindergarten.
Invariably, after any occasion where she’s gallivanted off on her own, as soon as we’re home she becomes extra clingy and says:
I want you hold me.
Which brings me to my point (rather circuitously yet more rapidly than I’d anticipated when I hit NEW POST):
When do we lose the ability to make ourselves vulnerable & plainly state what we need.
When do we veer away from I want you hold me & toward feeling as though we must do everything on our own and/or expect others to guess what we need?
Ren Man & I have talked about this ad nauseum and have come up empty.
I know for me the ability to ask for what I need has been a decades long evolution.
What I wish for my girl is that she is *not* me in this realm.
What I wish for my girl is she can always express I want you hold me & allow herself to be vulnerable with people no matter how risky an endeavor that may at times feel to be.
What I wish for my girl is she may reap the benefit of your wisdom and life-experience.
When was the last time you metaphorically(or literally) uttered the words: I want you hold me.
To whom are you able to make yourself vulnerable? Did this list used to be longer?
If youre like most of us grown-up types & have temporarily lost this ability whats your I want you hold me youve grown unable to speak?
I know I always say please to hit me up in the comments, but today more than ever I seek your wisdom.
Please to hit us ALL up below.