We are due for boosters next year.
I say we because I’m always the one to bring the Child to the doctor and every damn time it’s so exhausting I feel as though I’ve endured the shot.
(At our last round she flung open the exam room door & ran down the hall shouting I’m going to the car! I’m leaving! When I mumbled to the nurse This must happen all the time. She looked me straight in the eye and said No.)
For that reason I began dreading our ’11 year boosters’ years ago.
The Child is already asking the exact number she’ll receive and where (“Arm? Butt? I must know!!”).
As a result I, too, have had boosters-on-the-brain since she turned double digits.
Unstoppable–unless a syringe is involved.
I didn’t realize how much, however, until a text exchange with a friend.
My friend, whom I believe to be part mermaid, lives for her yearly trips home to Fiji.
She enjoys life away from the island, but her annual visits are a necessary infusion of energy.
They’re a jolt of life-source which sustains her throughout the remainder of the year…until she can return again.
It was during our text-conversation, as we chatted about her upcoming travel, these thoughts snapped into place.
My friend is fine away from her fave place, yet these visits are a necessity for her to maintain
mermaid status efficacy in all areas of her life.
Fiji is her booster shot.
As we texted I grew a little envious of her.
could the outdoors in *general* be my booster shot?
How would it feel to be able to identify what provided the boost I required so I could return to my daily-life rejuvenated? I wondered.
Outside of small intermissions I couldn’t think of an activity which served as my booster shot in the fashion Fiji did for my friend.
I asked myself:
- Where do I find a sense of purpose and mattering in daily life?
- What keeps me going when times feel tiring or tough?
- What infuses me with strength needed to overcome feeling discouraged?
I chatted with others and found some could immediately identify their “booster shot,” while others were more like I was.
obsessed and stumped.
Based on friends’ answers, I broke down the forms their booster shots took in an effort to uncover mine through this approach.
Health booster This was a common response. Running, resistance training, yoga etc. All provided a needed boost of physical calm or energy.
Brain booster This was fairly common among my friends, too. Reading, learning, challenging ingrained notions in creative ways (AKA living outside the box).
Zen booster While my friends didn’t use this term it definitely captures their answers. Making time to unplug. Choosing to prioritize day dreaming. Meditative movement which isn’t traditional meditation. Getting outdoors.
Connection booster Formal planned gatherings. Spontaneous crappy get-togethers. Seeking connection on a consistent basis in a variety of ways. Most of my extroverted friends identified connection as their booster.
Are my Kangoos my booster?
Spoiler alert: I’ve not found a definitive answer.
And yet, in the same way I strive to approach my life, the fact I’m seeking and exploring has already cause me to feel empowered and happy.
I’m confident I’ll eventually discover my booster (and I know in 6 months the Child will “discover” hers).
- What gives you a needed boost when you question whether or not you can continue?
- What do you look forward to when energy wanes because you know it’s the shot of life you require?