My question for myself this week is my question for you:
Why do you blog?
It will come as no surprise to most of you I returned from BlogHer waving the white flag of blog-surrender.
That my days of blogging in this fashion could be drawing to an end & I might, after a longass blogcation, return to the ‘net a smaller more anonymous way.
A few of you commented on last Friday’s post you ‘sensed’ there was a lot more I wasnt sharing from my BlogHer experience.
There was—-and there wasn’t.
As a grownass woman I take complete & total responsibility that the blog-malaise Im experiencing is of my own making.
Let me back up.
I started MizFit as a way to give back.
I’d found I was asked the same fitness questions by friends/family/total strangers in the grocery.
I figured I may as well create a place to send people where I could share what I knew & they could support each other as well.
It goes back to what Ive repeatedly said about the need for us to* know our gifts* and not be embarrassed to OWN THEM.
Im a community builder.
It’s what I do.
I could easily point out 20983 bloggers who write far better than I–but I never question my ability to create a community & the prospect of an online one excited me.
When I launched MizFit in Feb 2008, my plan was to start the ball rolling & eventually step away.
To create a community where the smallest part of the days post was my writing & the biggest took place in the commentversation.
And then I fell in love with blogging.
Id previously been a mommy blogger and, to be honest, Id never been as smitten with that as I am with our healthy living/fitness/whatever you wanna call it community.
I found *I* was inspired & motivated when I read your blogs & shared in your successes.
I discovered, to my surprise, that the notion of STRUGGLE is a universal one.
My struggles may not currently be weightloss yet I found I could still ride your collective waves of inspiration to face my daily challenges regardless of what arena.
I found I was truly called to want to help when Id read blog entries where you were struggling.
(people frequently ask me “how do you arrange your blog reading?! Do you have a schedule of blogs you read on certain days of the week?” which makes me laugh. I love starting my days with your posts & commenting when Im so moved. No “blog reader” (google reader?) here— I just click and peruse.)
Somewhere along the way I think Ive lost my….way.
Recently Ive begun to focus much of this malaise on the fact that *large* companies refuse to sponsor blogs yet relentlessly bombard us with PR requests to pitch their products & promote their chickenbus.
And willingly promote I do.
I need to take ownership of that as I love doing the giveaways (especially in this economy when it seems FEW of us have money left over for silly unnecessary but *fun*extras).
One of the more popular mom bloggers recently organized a PR BLACKOUT.
The reaction was tremendously mixed & one negative comment stuck in my head:
The commenter (also a blogger) told the organizer she was, essentially, sitting in a steaming shit-pile of her own making.
(Blunt, yes. MIND STICKING? Fo’shizzle.)
Which all brought me, as I sat squarely in the steaming pile of my own Mizcreation, back to square one.
Why do I blog?
I blog for myself. I blog to help others. I blog to give back for all Ive been given. I blog to give away information/education/free treats Ive been fortunate to receive.
Is it wrong to want to at least be able to reconcile the time I spend writing (something I also do as my day-job) with some sort of income?
(Im talking one figure here not three. Im demanding but realistic.)
Is it wrong to grow annoyed with the fact that LARGE COMPANIES (yes. ones which rhyme with schmadidas & schmeeebock) want me to promote them for free?
Is it wrong that, after Ive said no & realize there are 100s of bloggers out there who will happily say yes, Im still resentful of the companies’ lack of respect for our ‘profession?’
Can it be as simple as my no longer opening the many PR emails which clog my in-box, cutting back my posting schedule & realizing that we, the readers, value something they, the large companies, for the most part do not?
which all brings me back to square one:
Why do I blog?
I blog for you.
For those of you who have made it through this long-ass tattooed-navel gazing post.
For those of you who rallied behind one of our fellow bloggers who is struggling.
For all of you who rally behind ALL the bloggers out there working to make their today a better one than their yesterday or maintain momentum from a good day had.
Heck, I even blog for the small group of amazing PR professionals/small biz owners whom I now consider more friends than anything else.
I wrap up this long, meandering, resolving nothing, self indulgent post still wondering & now wanting to know:
Why do you blog?
please to take a moment & hit me up in the comments.
I’ll join you there as well.