Subtitle: What I have learned (& relearned) about myself so far.
I am in complete and utter awe at the mental tenacity runners possess.
I do not possess such tenacity.
When Ive quit my long runs (& I am lifter-women enough to admit this has happened more than once) it has been out of boredom and not physical exhaustion.
This is not bragging, People.
In my opinion quitting not due to physical fatigue is far more…depressing/disappointing to me than simply being TIRED.
Yes Ive been relegated to treadmill runs (myriad reasons I wont delve into here) but Ive also seen some badass runners knock these long runs out on the ‘mill with ease. Thats where the mental tenacity comes into play.
Im thankful I shifted goals from full marathon to half. Beyond my lack of mental fortitude as addressed above, training for 26.2 miles is just too much cardio for me.
Training for a half is perfect in that it doesnt disrupt my sleep (due to overtraining symptoms) & I also dont feel as though Im shedding muscle with all the cardio Im doing (important to me).
Rereading my marathon training plan I now realize that, for me, Id be immediately overtrained.
While running experts disagree, I must return to the notion of being the expert of my own body.
For me, as I age, less exercise is more. I do it consistently. Day in day out. Year in year out. Not in vast volumes.
It has been really good for me to tackle a new project with tiny eyes always watching.
When I agreed to run the race Id not anticipated the teaching moments saying yes would provide me. My training has opened up conversations about everything from sticking with things when they get hard to the importance of being open to new experiences.
I rarely talk about running around the house (I may whine here but I really am a do’er not a talker) yet the Tornado has 100% noticed my new endeavor & is entirely intrigued by my new goal.
My husband rocks. Ive said it before & Im sure Ill say it again: damn I married well.
Ren Man has endured more harebrained schemes than you can imagine (seriously. From shaving my head to flying to meet with one of the Vice Presidents at Target to pitch an idea) and ALWAYS supports me 100%.
He and the Tornado will be flying to Disney, getting up at what’s pretty much the middle of the night to see me off, and cheering me on as I run.
Ive also said a million times before that I believe everything in life is a choice. A daily recommitment. From healthy living to being married.
Im grateful that he and I both make that choice. Daily.
And that’s about it here.
Im needing a bit more mental fortitude.
Im a tiny bit fearful Ill end the race running at a 90 degree angle (fear of being last? NONE. Dont care. Id take upright and smiling over 90 degree angle and passing people any day!) but most of all Im excited and appreciate more than you know ALL of your comments, emails and tweets.
SIXTEEN MORE DAYS!
got any tips for me for the night before or morning of?
any chance Ill see you in Disney (either as you blow past me in the race or on the sidelines)?
Long for a tutu of your own?
Please to hit us all up in the comments.