I talk a lot about the fact growth or movement forward often occurs so incrementally we barely see it happening.
Usually when I’m yammering about this notion it has to do with fitness and healthy living.
Newsflash: Lately I’ve felt emotionally stuck.
I recognize this shocks no one, but it’s a scenario I’d sort of surrendered to.
I draped it in lovely language (I’m meeting myself where I am).
I sometimes played the victim card (it’s fine I’m stagnating—-it’s a tough time for me).
I presented it as being gentle to myself (it’s ok—new beginnings require time).
The thing was, however I’d choose to frame it, I’d unwittingly give myself permission to stagnate.
the moments before.
I’d allowed myself to get mired in the emotional muck.
Possibly permanently stuck or so I’d thought until opportunity was thrust in my path.
It was a beautiful day and a group of us ventured out to kayak and paddle board.
Mere moments after climbing in the kayak I decided to snap a group photo.
Yanking off my fave (prescription) sunglasses I accidentally tossed them in the water never to be seen again.
My reaction to the situation surprised myself even more than those around me.
I didn’t fall into scarcity mindset and panic about procuring a $replacement.
I was able to let go and enjoy the day (AKA not brood. AKA not panic when I couldn’t see.).
It’s the development of our ability to handle the feelings we experience.
It’s building a solid foundation which allows us to create healthy emotions/reactions even during times of stress.
I was shocked by my ability to be resilient and not let something seemingly tiny yet financially/emotionally huge derail me.
Surprising myself not only made that day a happier one—it gave me renewed hope.
I’m now making the conscious choice to continue moving forward and step into growth.
Even now when all I long for is to retreat to the familiar.
Tomorrow may deliver a new set of challenges which knock me back a few steps and that’s OK.
Emotional growth, same as fitness and healthy living, is not linear.
And as long as I’m aware there’s movement even when I cannot see it – – that’s OK.